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The Perks of Being a Wallflower.

Is an awesome book!

Favorite book ever.

Read it.

So I finally got started on my flickr.

I uploaded all my pictures there. It's not a lot. But it's a start.

Check it out. All my pictures are there. :P

I just read some of my old journals and some of the things I have said

Well, let's just say they're stupid.

I guess I sometimes say things I know will change in the future.



What do you think about this quote?

"Seasons change, people don't."

Today was really great.

I talked to Patrick on the phone because he was bored at work. haha. It was pretty random because we never really talk on the phone. We have before, but just once. But it was nice to talk to him. I like talking to Pat. :) We talk about so many things.

Some of my friends came over because they wanted to play basketball across from where I live.

So I shoot a few hoops with them. Even though I hate basketball. But I was mostly playing with my friend, Kirill's dog, Diesel.

He's so hyper and cute. But bites a lot because he's teething.

After that we just watched tv a little bit over at my place then they had to go because of work.

A little bit after that my new friend Ryan called me because he was gonna pick me up to go see a play.

But when we got there, the tickets were all sold out. So we decided to just go to the movies.

We watched The Eye. It's pretty scary. But I had a fun time with him. Really fun time.

Then we ate, then he took me home. We talked about many different things and I guess I kinda know more a little bit more. Which is good. :)

I wouldn't have had this night any other way. It was great that I got to hang out with him. :)

Not just a great night. But a great day as well.

It's good to actually talk to Patrick again after all this time.

I kinda missed that.

Lots of things to catch up on.

So it was nice. :)

After losing a friend, I gained a new one.

Someone who is incredibly nice and very down to earth.

His name is Ryan. Although we have only known each other for a little more than two weeks,

We both feel like its longer than that. I guess because we spend so much time together.

Since we both go to the same school.

I'm feeling so much happier now. I hope this doesn't go away that fast.

I want something to grow out from this. Something nice. Something I will be extremely happy about.

But for now, we're just living it


As friends.

This week has been extremely tough and hard for me. Every day just kept getting worse and worse when spring semester started on monday. Before, I had a feeling that this will be a really fun and laid back semester, but oh I thought wrong. Way fucking wrong. The Anatomy class that I was trying to petition for didn't add me after being in his class for two days! What a fucking douche bag! He's such a dick. And I already bought stuff for the class too! Like study guides for his class and stuff. So now I had to petition for other classes and mess up my whole spring schedule. 

And! For some weird stupid fucking reason, my best friend [well I don't even know anymore if he's still my best friend] is ignoring me! He hasn't responded to my messages, texts, and IMs and I have no freaking idea why! And I know he has read all of them. The last time we talked and hung out everything was fine. We were getting along. And now he pulls off this silent treatment shit?! What the fuck? Everytime I tried talking to him, it's like talking to a wall! If he hates me for some reason, he should tell me. Not just ignore me like I don't exist anymore. I'd understand that. At least there's a reason! But now I don't care anymore, if he doesnt want to talk.. then so be it. It's not worth it to drag myself around in curiosity and guilt about whatever is happening. I just have to accept that not  matter how hard it is to lose someone you care about. It will happen. People come and go. And everything happens for a reason. I just have to be strong and move on. No matter how important the people I lose are.

I had a little help from a friend of mine who I talked to about this. So thanks Tyler!

If Aaron doesn't want to talk anymore and have nothing to do with me anymore, then so be it. I don't fucking care. I will miss the fun times we had, but better things will come my way. For sure! If he talks to me again, I'll talk, but if not, then I accept that.

So for now, I'm short of a best friend.


BUT! I just made friends with cooool new people. So I guess things are starting to turn up for the good. yay

I have no idea why my Vitamin Water tastes more vitaminey than it usually does.

It tastes like a cough medicine with water!

And I don't know why. It's sooo weird.

And there's like a gooey stuff in it too! I'm like.. "what the fuck is that?!"

So for once in my life

I didn't finish a bottle of Vitamin Water. :/

Waste of money! lol

If you're wondering, the flavor was Power-C.

I promise,

I will have my driver's license by the end of this month

I have to do it

My permit will expire on the 29th!

I'm excited

happy new year!

i had fight with my best friend because i was being selfish and i always want him to hang out with me. and of course he has work and other stuff to do too and i know he cant just drop everything and hang out with me.

so my new years resolution is to not be selfish.

i know im a greedy bastard. so ill changed that. at least try to do it.

i promise! damn it. lol

oh and one more resolution... to get into a damn relationship. damn it! ive been wanting to be in one. i know i will find someone. and not just someone. someone right and true. i cant just settle for someone random just cuz im too desperate to be in a relationship. fuck no.

i always keep myself this quote,

"if love is real, it'll find a way."


good night!

i had a great christmas.

and got pretty good presents.

life is going pretty great. i cant complain.

im very grateful of everything thats been happening. :]

the whole day today

im tired

but it was fun

i cant wait to open all my presents

but i think i can contain myself





merry christmas to all

or happy hannukkahh [whatever the hell you spell that]

or happy kwanzaaaa [whatever the hell you spell that too]

and a happy new year.

is it weird if i said i didnt have any fears?

im not saying im not afraid of anything. of course i will get scared if i see a rattle snake in my living room. but i wont be all crazy freaked out scared at it if i saw it on tv or a picture of it in a book or something. you know? because people who have fears of things like those tend to get all crazy scared even when they see something they have a fear on that is not real and actual.. like on tv or picture. same goes with ghosts or bugs.

and i dont think im scared of death or death of a loved one or heights or anything. i will get sad when someone i know dies. but i dont let my mind think about death too much that it kinda makes me crazy insane.

fear is a crazy thing. i dont get it.

i dont get why my brother freaks out really.. to the extreme.. when say.. i tossed a small rubber toy snake at him. its stupid. why are people like this?

i dont get why my friend is afraid of heights.. like.. he doesnt like those rock climbing walls.. he said hed cry if he was 10 feet above the ground. even with harness! i mean.. is he scared hes gonna fall? so shouldnt that mean.. that he has a fear of falling? and if you look deeper into it.. does it mean he has a fear of getting hurt from a fall or something? or.. even dying? especially from a fall?

oh and why do a lot of people have a fear of speaking in front of a large crowd? i dont mind presenting something in school in front of everyone.. ive done a presentation once that last for a litlte less than two hours. lol.
so.. shouldnt it mean that.. people are scared of  embarrassment instead? :P

its stupid. lol.


i dont have any phobias. but i will get scared on anything well... scary.


oh and to add to that.. i dont have a favorite color either.
do you think im weird? lol

my winter break that is.

freaking about time!

i just got done with my last final, which was in psychology.

i flew through that test in less than 30 minutes.

do you know why?

cuz some of the answers were left by someone who had the same test paper as i did.

and i wasnt taking it any seriously anyway.

im gonna pass the class no matter what. lol




life is great. 
ask me why.

its funny how.

my house has both direct tv and time warner cable.

a satellite and digital cable.


thats stupid.

not a lot. i think.

-clothes [good ones]
       -shirts
       -hoodies
       -pants
       -beanies
             -knit
             -ski hats with ear flaps
             -snow hats with fur. haha.

-new hair straightener
       -bed head
       -or other expensive ones. lol

-tempur pedic matress
       -with matching pillow

-shoes
       -vans
       -nike

-mp3 player
       -zune
       -i pod
             -nano
             -shuffle
             -i touch

-more clothes. lol

-a car [yea right]
       -compact ones
             -honda fit
             -mini cooper
             -toyota yaris

-a new cell phone
       -qwerty keyboard
             -original sidekick
             -sidekick id

-video games
       -for ps2
       -for gamecube
       -for nintendo ds

-TCW [dont ask]

i havent talk to tyler in so long.

i cant believe how much i miss that man.

i promised him ill come to portland

soon. :)

this weekend has been soo great.
it all started on friday when i had my last ping pong class.

then spent the whole afternoon at my friend kirill's house watching family guy and eating pizza
his dog is the cutest. that freaking biter almost ruin my socks.

then went to the mall from there and met up with my other friends

then played video games at my place
my friend works at urban outfitters so he shopped for us online with 40% off. haha. that was nice

saturday was pretty relaxing cuz i just spent the day at home and went out at night.

sunday.. just went places and put up decorations around the house.

it was pretty fun.. after all the rough and tough week ive been through. it was a good way to end this week.

hopefully this coming week is a great too.


uugghh i still dont know what to get my best friend for christmas!

any ideas? let me know. :P

ive been stressing.

over stupid things.

i dont know what the next year holds for me.

but ill try my best to work everything out.

i still havent gotten my license!
and my permit is gonna expire on the 29th of january!

ive been driving tho.

and im getting better at it.
hopefully i get my license soon.
and drive places.

after that i can get a job.
and get money. :)

shiiiieeetttt

where the heck have i been?!

its been sooooooo long since the last time i put up a journal entry

ive just been soo busy with school and everything. english class has made me stressed out and busy.

SOMEONE told me i havent kept up with LJ and that just made me come back here and put up a journal

and i havent even talked to that SOMEONE in a long time. i just had to catch up with him on things today when i talked to him

which was cool. ive just been so caught up with stuff so it was nice to talk to him again.

we shall play scrabble and pool again niggs.